Thinking is a continuous process. Our mind is like a monkey, once on a tree, it keeps on jumping from one to another. You started with one thought, just one, but you never know how you end up with something so different.
Same way, i also don’t know how i landed into my school / college days. I used to be one of the topper in the class (Well, not a big D, most kids are). I was thinking how i used to get so much upset for even a 9.5 over 10. How i always wanted to outdrive a boy who always comes first.
In the thought process, i don’t know how and when my mind picked a memory from my college life and screened it. It showed when i even fought with a professor for getting an A grade. Everybody’s gone, just me arguing with her. And, after an hour or so, when i came out, everyone is like ‘what happened?, did you won the battle?’ Yes, it’s not less than a battle. Today also when i think of that moment , i see myself so conceited and arrogantly coming out of the room, that yes i have won the battle (so-called argument) and now i have Grade A in ALL subjects, and i am a 10 pointer now.
There are many such incidents in my life, maybe even in everyone’s life.
Now, today when i think of all such incidents, i am forced to question myself – “Does that ACTUALLY mattered that much?”, “Was that .5 mark worth my worry, my agitation?” , “Does it made any difference to me NOW”, “What would have happened if ever i had missed grade A in JUST ONE subject? ” “Was that actually a real issue to fight / argue over with my friend/family/colleague?
The answer to all such questions is a BIG NO and a BIGGER NOTHING.
Yes, its human nature. we all crave for the best, for a perfect 10 on 10 in everything we do, in every field we work in. Being child / young its very common. we can’t blame the person. But as a grown up individual, ask yourself – “Is it really right?, am i living & behaving in a proper manner. What am i doing to myself?”
Just stay equanimous. See the things as they really are, not as you want to perceive them. Unwanted things will keep on happening, wanted things may or may not happen. Don’t crave for the pleasant sensations and don’t dislike the unpleasant ones. Live a life free of miseries, live a peaceful and happy life. Enjoy real harmony.
BE HAPPY. MANGAL HO.